Real Succubus Tales: Sleep Paralysis and the Genesis of Erotic Horror

"Succubus 2" by Mike Teves, used with his permission

“Succubus 2″ by Miles Teves, used with his permission

I was struck by Richard Gavin’s recent commentary in which he observed that most horror fiction is rarely horrifying, but rather tends to focus on peripheral unpleasantness, such as nausea, gore, or bloodlust. As I read this, spontaneous images immediately welled up in my mind from some of the most horrifying moments of my life that were not only chilling but also erotically charged: sleep paralysis night-mares. This tangential response from the body/mind — unbidden but undeniably seductive — is the focus of this essay.

During sleep paralysis, terror and the erotic often come together in a dizzying array of ambiguity. It is precisely this ambiguity — am I safe? Is it okay to feel this way? — that can escalate a merely creepy scenario into one of apocalyptic dread and sexy terror.

While all fiction doesn’t necessarily have its genesis in real life, there is undoubtedly a close connection between sleep paralysis and literary horror. Some of the most famous examples of direct influence would be Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein, Bram Stoker’s Dracula, and Poe’s “The Fall of the House of Usher.” [1] (Teeming Brain founder Matt Cardin has also written about the creative horror connection here and speaks eloquently about it here).

This makes me wonder about the direct influence of erotic sleep paralysis nightmares on culture and literature. I’m not a literary expert, especially concerning erotic horror, but I do know quite a bit about sexy devilish imps because, well, they have stolen into my own bedroom at night. By outlining the experiential roots of the real life succubus, as well as some of the science behind it, I hope to start a discussion about this potential correlation as well as the significance of this neuro-mythological pattern in the human psyche.

To break the ice and showcase the symptoms of this bizarre dream state, here’s an example that happened to me a few years ago:

I woke up in the morning and realized I couldn’t move. I knew I was in sleep paralysis, but rational thought didn’t stop my fear from spiking when I heard the bedroom door open, followed by the sound of footsteps and the swooshing of fabric. The sound was exactly that of my wife walking into the room in her slacks and overcoat, but I knew that my wife was actually at work. I decided to roll with it — with the thought, in other words, that this could be a spirit-walker sent by my wife, a part of her soul. (It made sense at the time.) My eyes were seemingly closed, so I next felt her sit down on the bed next to me. The mattress sank and I could feel her presence palpably. Then I felt her lips on my own, soft and warm. I relaxed further and my desire swelled intensely, all at once. She embraced me passionately. At this point, my vision somewhat returned and I could make out the face of the woman kissing me. That’s when I noticed that her cheeks were covered with fur and she had the snout of deer. My stomach roiled and passion turned to grappling terror. I woke up immediately, absolutely freaked out.

Symptoms of real succubi attacks

Perhaps you have had the experience before yourself. Have you ever woken up from sleep and realized you couldn’t move? It happens like this: the more you struggle, the more it feels like you are being held down. You may even detect a presence in the room, hovering near the bed, or perhaps in the corner of the room.

Then come the visions. About 14 to 18 percent of the time, sleep paralysis victims come to face to face with an otherworldly entity. [2] I wish I could say “human-like entity,” but actually many encounters are with hairy monsters, animal-hybrids, giant insects, and/or aliens.

A smaller subset of visitations, however, include ghosts or human-like entities who sit on the victim’s chest and proceed to sexually molest them, including sensations of penetration. This is the incubus or succubus encounter (male and female spirits, respectively), recently popularized through the Canadian paranormal show Lost Girl.

Some of these experiences are downright dreadful, and are aptly named “ghost rape.” Others are actually pleasurable, resulting in orgasm. Yet sometimes the encounter rides a thin line between horror and eros, in which the victim is both turned on and horrified simultaneously. This phenomenon has been little explored due to all of the nested taboos (demon sex? really?) but it’s more common than we’d like to believe.

Unholy night visitors are wholly natural

Perhaps the strangest insight into these uncanny visitations is that they are part of a forgotten vision complex that still manages to squeeze into modern life despite our rational culture’s desperate wish that the demons will go away. Neurologically, sleep paralysis visitations occur when the brain is in REM sleep, also known as dreaming sleep. However, sleep paralysis visions are no ordinary dream, as they occur when REM sleep intrudes into wakefulness. The mind is awake, but the body is asleep, resulting in bizarre bodily feelings and sensations as we notice our own perfectly normal muscle paralysis that comes along with REM.

“Perhaps the strangest insight into these uncanny visitations is that they are part of a forgotten vision complex that still manages to squeeze into modern life despite our rational culture’s desperate wish that the demons will go away.”

Why so sexy, though?  As it turns out, REM can be a physiologically aroused state of mind. Dream orgasms and pleasure during sleep paralysis are possible — and for some people common — due to this basic biological fact.

Sleep paralysis is a common symptom of sleep conditions like narcolepsy and sleep apnea, but it can also come unbidden to millions of others due to stressors such sleep restriction, anxiety, and over-medication. In these cases, sleep paralysis can be managed by attending to lifestyle habits.

The natural occurrence of the erotic night-mare, along with its cross-cultural expression and deep historic presence, suggests to me that terror and sexuality are neurologically linked, and that each can serve as the gateway to the other. Both erotic and horrific images, for example, lower the heart rate and increase the galvanic skin response compared to other images. [3] As many a young couple at the movies have discovered for themselves — not to mention all the vanilla soccer moms currently reading 50 Shades of Gray – the body has similar reactions to both kinds of arousal.

Here’s another example of how the succubus confuses and stirs us. Walton, a reader of my blog DreamStudies.org, sent me the following narrative:

I was [sleeping and] lying on my stomach, on top of this beautiful woman, having sex, she was saying things, and the sex got more intense, at the point near orgasm I awoke to sleep paralysis, and I hallucinated me on top of a white skinned, blue-lipped dead body. It stayed a few seconds while I couldn’t move and then vanished when movement returned. It sounds negative, but I found it to be exciting in an odd way. (personal communication, 2009)

Courage in the face of ambiguity

Novelist and dream worker Robert Moss has also walked this line. In his case, the sexual and horrifying nature of the visionary encounter leads to a transformation of the entity as well as an invitation to delve further into the dreaming imagination. Moss recalls how, as a teenager, a disgusting hag with multiple arms and withered breasts entered his bedroom and accosted him. He was completely paralyzed as the hag crawled up the bed, stomped on his chest, and then lowered herself onto him. Moss explains how,

Despite my disgust, I am aroused and now she is riding me. Her teeth are like daggers. My chest is spattered by blood and foulness from the rotting heads. There is nothing for me to do but stay with this. I tell myself I will survive. At last, the act is done. Satisfied, the nightmare hag transforms into a beautiful young woman. She smells like jasmine, like sandalwood. She takes me by the hand to a forest shrine. I forget about the body I have left frozen in the bed. [4]

In literature, “sticking with” the ambiguity of horror and eros could be seen as the mark of excellent fiction. The rising levels of confusion open us up to new levels of vulnerability that neither passion can achieve alone. Given that we live in a world where it’s apparently common to be harassed by amorous ghosts, Moss’s account offers a refreshing perspective by showing that the ambiguity of eros and horror can be honored not just as titillation, but, if our egos survive the ordeal, as a portal into the deep imagination.

What would have happened, I wonder, if I had possessed the courage to stick with the “Deer Woman” who came to my bed in the guise of my dear wife? This realm may be an example of neurognosis at work: the idea that unconscious patterns of wisdom are hidden inside the psyche, waiting for us to have the courage, patience, or training to unlock them.

"Succubus 1" by Mike Teves, used with his permission

“Succubus 1″ by Miles Teves, used with his permission

This exploration of erotic horror could easily be misrepresented and quoted out of context, so by way of clarification, I’m not suggesting that nocturnal assault “should” be tolerated, and I’m definitely not advocating for the willful incubation or calling of sexual demons to the bedside for personal pleasure. We have enough troubles! Nor am I suggesting that social views towards consensual sexuality and the politics of rape should be doubted due to this curious phenomenon.

Rather, my curiosity today extends only into the reaches of imagination, creativity, and entertainment, which appear to have some curious bedfellows nonetheless.

I’m very curious to hear what those of you more versed in erotic horror than I, as well as succubus experiencers, may have to say about this topic.

REFERENCES

[1] See Adler, Shelly R, Sleep Paralysis: Night-mares, Nocebos, and the Mind-Body Connection, Brunswick, NJ: Rutgers, 2010, especially pp. 54-58, for a discussion of the relationship between sleep paralysis and literary/artistic creativity.

[2] Hufford, David J, “Sleep Paralysis as Spiritual Experience,” Transcultural Psychiatry 42, No. 1 (March 2005): p. 37.

[3] Carvalho, Sandra, Jorge Leite, Santiago Galdo-Álvarez, and Óscar F. Gonçalves, “Psychophysiological Correlates of Sexually and Non-Sexually Motivated Attention to Film Clips in a Workload Task,” PLoS One 6, No. 12 (Decembe4 2011): e29530.

[4] Moss, Robert, “Liminal Complaints: Demons, Night Nags and Sleep Paralysis,” Dream Gates, BeliefNet, January 2011.

Images by Miles Teves, used with his permission

About Ryan Hurd

Ryan Hurd is is founder of DreamStudies.org. He is also a frequent contributor to Business Insider and Reality Sandwich. His books include LUCID IMMERSION GUIDEBOOK: A HOLISTIC BLUEPRINT FOR DREAMING (2012) and SLEEP PARALYSIS: A GUIDE TO HYPNAGOGIC VISIONS AND VISITORS OF THE NIGHT (2011). He has lectured at Stanford University, the Institute of Buddhist Studies, and the Rhine Institute, and has presented and published papers on sleep paralysis, lucid nightmares, and the application of dreaming for uncovering researcher bias and novelty. He has a MA in Consciousness Studies from John F. Kennedy University and a bachelor's degree with a specialization in archaeology, and is a board member of the International Association for the Study of Dreams and a member of the American Anthropological Association and the Society for the Anthropology of Consciousness.

Posted on February 25, 2013, in Paranormal, Psychology & Consciousness, Visions, Dreams, and Visitations and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 36 Comments.

  1. Kudos on your work above Ryan and for taking a risk on a potentially taboo” subject matter.
    If I may be allowed to comment, ….
    As you know, not all “victims” who suffer from sleep paralysis, poltergeist and other anomalies experience the Incubus/Succubus “attack”. It is my opinion/theory that a large part of the Erotic Horror as mentioned above is in fact (for some at least) due to the taboo associated with either the perceived sexuality , sex act and/or that same act with another person, animal or entity. Yes, “guilt” I am personally aware of a woman who fantasizes about being intimate with an alien and at the same time confessed to being ashamed at having admitted this to me. The images we see (perceive) with our eyes and/or mind are subject to interpretation by our very own Unqualified minds. What the conscience minds can not make logical to our own unique standards, the creative side will fill in the grey areas (no pun intended) the blanks usually during sleep. Then we wake and say something like, “Wow, I just had the craziest dream”. Often times I have had the experience of a woman approach me. She taunts me, as she is already disrobed. Sometimes it goes into great detail, other times not. I have been living with this issue for many years. But the fear, the run to your daddy’s side fear. I know this woman is Satan, and she knows I know.

    • thanks for the comment Chaz. I agree, we can co-create the succubus encounter depending on the extent of our fears — but I don’t think fear is always the manifestor of specific experiences, or that lack of fear will always shape shift the experience. as for the woman being Satan, that sounds like trouble to me. as Brave Sir Robin says, run away!

    • they know everything we know and they exploit it as soon as they can.. it’s so intrusive, it’s the definition of the word.. mine came to me as Archangel Michael, because that is what i was lead to believe was the only possibility and every time i learnt something new, it came to me as a manifestation of the new information eg it only became sexual when i KNEW it could be sexual.. now I am afraid to learn new information, as i know it will be exploited, but fear is not a word i like to use as i know this is their goal and what feeds them. Do you really think you are visited by satan or just a legionairre of satan? is there really a difference!? Would like to know what you think Chaz :) God bless pal :)

  2. Very interesting article, Ryan. I don’t read erotic horror fiction (I have enough imagery in my head, thanks), but I would definitely think that anyone who’s writing it has more than likely experienced sleep paralysis. I would say the same about all types of horror, whether erotic or not. I don’t think it will be much longer before these authors and movie-makers hear about sleep paralysis and begin to speak out about their personal experiences and how it’s contributed to their art.

    • right-o! I’m hoping this article helps with turning the tide and speaking out. Succubi victims unite! I am presenting on the topic of creative sleep paralysis at an upcoming dream conference actually and have found a number of modern artists who have been directly influenced by their SP.

  3. I wrote on this topic with respect to Coleridge for a paper. I found a book in my school library called Coleridge And The Daemonic Imagination by Gregory Leadbetter, which was wholly fascinating, so I had a good excuse to get a little bit crazy . My closing argument was effectively that what happened in Rime Of The Ancient Mariner was kinesthetic. I also recommend Dr. Wilhelm Reich to study up on.

    • interesting Daniel! can you speak more about the kinesthetic qualities of the Coleridge poem? do you specifically mean out-of-body or some other similar form of dream delirium?

      • I wrote a paper for school that is on my blog. My thought was that when the albatross falls from his neck, like lead, and he finds the room to pray again, its analogous to lament or sighing.

        Dr. Wilhelm Reich believed that people had a sort of character armouring that, if manipulated (think yoga, or qi gong, etc..), would release a biological energy that he called orgone. In massage, his work is highly regarded. Orgone could as well be ki or ch’i or whathaveyou.

        Daemonic-Dread is another similar idea analogous to Dr. Wilhelm Reich’s theories in the sense that the shivers or shudders are inspired by conception of the numinous from the liminal . East-Asian shamanism is kind of like this because their philosophy is “come what may”. I like korean shamanism a lot because they equate lament from suffering as a catalyst for receiving blessings or boons.

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  5. Im just wondering are you looking for people tthat this has happened to?? It has to me but wanna make sure thats what your looking for??!!

  6. Its probably happened to everyone. Its very common and natural.

  7. It occurs to me that the most obvious example of the direct influence sleep paralysis has on literary horror would be Lovecraft’s Dreams in the Witch House. But I wouldn’t call it erotic horror.

    Fuseli did self-induce sleep paralysis/night terrors through manipulating his diet, but Coleridge was a victim of his big heart. Literally. His heart was over-sized and responsible for both his lethargy and night visions.

    I never made the connection between sleep paralysis and the Fall of the House of Usher, but it does make sense.

    I have experienced sleep paralysis with the usual accompaniments – desire but inability to scream, restricted breathing, demonic presence – but never one that turned erotic. I also wonder about instances where the succubus turns into an object of desire and whether they might signify a relapse into normal REM sleep mode.

    • great thoughts, thanks for the comment. I have never heard about Fuseli’s dietary experimentations before. Any good sources to point me towards? Juicy stuff.

      Also, as for REM, it’s hard to say, but fun to ponder. technically SP occurs when the brain is in REM too, albeit intruded REM into stage n-1. I think the sexuality is more about individual differences than anything else, with some good old fashioned expectation effects too (just like with lucid dreaming. As Stephen LaBerge is fond of saying — lucid outcomes are products of expectation more than anything else)…

      • I have found numerous references to Fuseli’s raw meat eating habits. One of the first – in terms of chronology – is in Quincey’s Confessions of an English Opium-Eater; there is also reproduced the rumor that he created Nightmare after eating massive quantities of raw pork chops. There was a comprehensive article I read a long time ago about the habits of writers and artists – mostly the Romantics – and it confirmed Fuseli as a raw meat eater. I think the article appeared in a late 19th century American literary magazine. I have also found the same repeated in various biographies. Also, every time there is an exhibition of Fuseli’s work, the raw-meat eating habit always pops up.

        It might be exaggerated or even anecdotal, but I prefer to think it is true.

  8. A deeply interesting piece, Ryan. Nicely done.

  9. I am pleased to see The Teeming Brain continue to explore this area as a fascinating phenomenon that encompasses several disciplines of study. As an individual who experienced sleep paralysis and feelings of a presence in the past, and as a scholar who remains interested in the paranormal and its influence on the human experience and expression in folklore, literature, film and television, this is a welcome and helpful exploration. I look forward to digesting the referenced sources, some of which I had not seen before.

  10. I am not sure if this has happend to me but, i have had dream when i have sex with women. (All of them brown hair) but i have never had the sleep paralysis. I am a pretty spiritual person ratjer than relgious. I wear an el cevache necklace.(onyx necklace) for protection. Do you think this has something to do with it? Please email me.

  11. This is so…great. I mean, I’m 18 now, and I thought that all these years, I was the only one having these sleep paralysis attacks. Then BAM, the internet shows you’re not alone!

    I’ve experienced this horror too, seeing a demon up my face but I can’t do anything about it. HOWEVER, the difference is that it’s not horror-erotic. It’s either horror or erotic only. Which is really weird.

    Sleep paralysis only happens to me when I go to sleep very, very, very, very, very tired.

    1) I’m sure it’s sleep paralysis. I’m not dreaming of other places – I can “see my surroundings”

    2) I’m not sure if it is somewhat like Lucid Dreaming..here’s the weird part. When this feeling sets in, I start seeing a demon. You know what I do? I think of sex – it works sometimes. Sometimes, I’m so tired that I can’t even think, and the demon is JUST AT MY FACE. When I can think, though, the demon disappears, and whoever I think of is just there with me. It’s never me WITH the demon. Later I feel guilty about it (the sex)

    Recently, whenever paralysis sets in, I panic and actually manage to move my hands before anything forms in front of my face. During the times I’m tired enough to continue being paralyzed, I SWEAR, if only I’m a good painter/drawer whatever, I’ll post in the internet the face of a demon that will totally scare the batsh*t out of you. Really. It’s amazing I’m not crazy yet.

    The comments seem to indicate that sleep paralysis causes a succubus/incubus attack, which then turns into an erotic event, or the other way around. Absolutely not my case.

    Bottom line: I try to get enough sleep. Never happens during college, though. :|

  12. Interesting Teeming Site and a subject I have some experience with.

    For about ten years off and on I had Succubus experiences. She looked much like the graphic you have of a succubus with flaming red hair. I would become aware of somebody straddling me and having the most passionate sex imaginable.

    I had previously been in a twelve year marriage where we had great sex. Some 4000+ simultaneous orgasms, a great marriage, a great passionate love but nothing like the redhead.

    At the time I just dismissed the experiences as an overactive libido. No such luck this was the real succubus deal.

    These experiences left me a little messed me up and I kept looking for her and at some point I said this is just ridiculous and had a shamanic friend chase her away. She has not come back.

    I have an inquisitive mind and inner explorations are richly rewarded (even built my own John C Lilly floatation tank) once we get our bearings in the space.

    You and some of your high bandwidth pals here might be interested in learning more about accessing your atrophied pituitary and pineal (DMT) glands. Kicking up the bandwidth waiting for those who get those golden glands working. Go to http://fukushima50.blogspot.ca/

  13. please send me any sucubus book

  14. kinda freaked out

    Alright so this just happened to me last night. Just want to share my experience.
    So after some crazy lucid dreaming (which I’ve experienced only a hamdful of times) I end up in a small room, sitting on a bed with a young attractive girl with wavy blonde hair and red lipstick. We just talked, getting to know each other. Asking different personal questions. She asked me where I lived and I answered “I lived with my mother” no big deal right? I mean im only 20. Well she thought otherwise. She started laughing hysterically, almost violently. I got somewhat pissed because she just kept laughing. Then it hit me, I’m dreaming. So I try waking myself up. AS SOON as I tried doing this, she stops laughing and gets nose to nose with me. Glaring into my eyes. Next thing I know im falling forward onto the bed and land face down, which happens to be the exact way I was sleeping on the floor. I land and im facing to my right, can’t move my body. The girl ended up under my right and and starts kissing my hand. Then $hit got real, fast. She starts a sort of transformstion, shaking so violently. As she is shaking she starts becoming a decrepid old woman whose face is sunken in, there is too much detail to describe. But she looked exactly like the first picture on this page. Well she goes from kissing to shredding my hand and arm with her teeth, the pain was all too real. She was also chanting something but I couldn’t make since of it. It was some language that I’ve never heard. I was fully aware I was somewhat awake because I could see the room around me but she was there, plain as day. My friend was on his computer directly behind me playing a game. So I was able to barely move my left hand. I attempted to hit his desk to get his attention but I merely tapped it. I could move my mouth, I attempted to yell but it came out as a faint whisper. I also had control of my right leg but my leg was moving far too slow to kick anything. I made a connection while this was going on, I became paralyzed when I touched her. So I tried what felt like forever to start lifting my right arm off of her. The chanting got louder as my arm went higher and finally my arm came off of her and she dissipated. I was released from the paralyzation and sat up, had full control of my body again. Told my friend about it and he said he watched me move my arm and my leg but thought it was a bad dream I was having.
    I am no paranormal fanatic, but I do somewhat believe in it. I have always been skeptical about SP until it happened to me last night. It started happening I’d say around 2:40AM because when I sat up it was 2:44AM. What brought me to comment this story was seeing the first picture, which is exactly what I seen. Hair, sunken face, crazy hands, torn clothes. All of the above. Except she was greyish with a very light blue tint. If you have questions just ask, if you’ve seen her before also I’d like to know what yoy experienced.

    • Yeah, that is deserving of being freaked out about!

      The “old hag” is what this is called when experiences in a strict sleep paralysis setting, but as a dream archetype the crone is bitter medicine and pan-human. I have also experienced dreams of watching girls transform into old crones — an existential reality that is nonetheless a cornerstone of horror. I believe that many of see the same things due mostly to “neurognostic” constants – that is, universal responses to human problems that transcend culture and are biological in origin. But that’s my bias.

  15. kinda freaked out

    Excuse the poor typing, I’m using my phone.

  16. So many different experiences, yet so many similarities. What a very strange world it is. I’ve had many many sleep paralysis experiences that are highly erotic, and luckily very very few that involve an element of fear or horror. At most I get annoyed at the things/people that seem to be moving around just outside the door or in the corners and talking which I know are not “real” because they are very distracting and cause a sort of paranoia.

    I have only had one lucid dream of having sex with someone who turned out to be a demon but it was pleasant. Mostly in my sleep paralysis I am highly aroused in a way that feels like a side-effect, no entities involved, not ones that I can see or feel anyway. I often beg and pray for relief, because the erotic sensations are so intense as to be frustrating and tortuous, but most often nothing can be done. I’, sure I’d happily accept the assistance of anything, even a demon to bring me to climax in that state.

    I often seem to be healing myself in reiki-like fashion while in this state and experiencing intense vibrations, rarely healing from an external source, and often this healing practice involves the popping out of demons, thought forms or some sort of seemingly unwanted energy from the body. The erotic energy seems to build eventually taking over my consciousness as this goes on.

    I’ve read that the arousal has to do with lower beings sucking your energy, but that explanation just doesn’t jive with the subjective experience of my encounter and the context. I thought it made more sense that the orgone-orgasmic type energy was simply a side-effect of the general chi energy channeling strongly and causing the vibrations.

    It similar every time, and yet its all very subject to things I read during my day that get into my head, the various explanations for what is going on, someone else’s experiences. Very strange indeed. Perhaps I would be more scared about sleep paralysis, and encounter more negative forms, if I could never wake myself up, but I am able to with my willpower if I truly feel like it about 90% of the time, and the other 10% I tend to fall back into a real dream. I usually feel more bored than scared if I just want to be getting a good rest and am sick of these same old “hallucinations” over and over.

  17. Code Name: Blue Jay

    So, I’ve had my own experiences with sleep paralysis and succubus encounters (if that is what you’d like to call it). With my own experiences, I am awake, though still a little drowsy, and am able to move slightly. It’s almost like that feeling you get when you sleep in on a Saturday and you know your suppose to wake up and are just about to turn over and get out of bed. When the experience starts, I automatically close my eyes. (sleeping, you ask? I have no idea) But than there is a pressure on top of me, as if someone is laying on me, and “he” feels me and pins me. And you know, does sexual things. Including having sex. (Now I’d like to point out, I’m a 21 year old virgin. I don’t even know the first thing about sex!) The last encounter (which have gotten even more frequent. As in, every night) I was somehow able to will myself to grab “him” by the arms. Suddenly, there was a lot of things going on. Lights flashy (Similar to strobe lights. which is not normal for me, I hardly ever dream of lights)and a screeching sound (something between a car breaking and and an animal screeching). I’ve never been extremely scared about these dreams (just when they started happening. Which originally it was about being dragged across the bed into a dark obis of nothingness), but this startled me. It was almost as if “he’ was telling me that he DIDN’T want me to see him. They are quite realistic dreams. Bed moving, sheets being imprinted, even the feelings of “his’ hands were real. One moment, there was a night where i only felt like I was embraced by ‘him”.

    Now let me clarify, I really don’t condone any of what is happening. Me NOT being afraid has come from a long, long, long life filled with bad nightmares to the point where I’ve learned to control my fear in my dreams. I’m just curious whether this is REAL or NOT and WHO/WHAT this thing is. Even after reading articles about this topic, I do believe it’s another being and not some scientific theory. BUT a demon? Idk, it didn’t seem like “he” wanted to harm me. But than again, that’s my own experience. Reading about other peoples experience, it almost seems like life or death or horror or erotica, which i don’t really feel as if mine is like that to the extreme.

    That being said, sorry if I’m all over the place. Like I said, this is a reoccurring thing.

  18. I’ve had the sleep paralysis phenomenon. I awoke unable to move
    With the feeling of a very negative entity in my room. Fear
    Engulfed me. I prayed Christ blood to protect me and the presence
    Left with the fear. Very strange experience.

  19. Well this just happened to me I will say it was scary. I awoke in my bed fully awake, but unable to move. I could move my head though. Then i feel the door open, my heart begins to race. I’m to scared to look.

    This woman appears. She sits down on the foot of my bed. She was actually quite attractive. I wasn’t going to let that sway my mind tho. I try to move with all my might but am unable to. This is what made me a little scared because i was fully conscious but unable to move. For the first time in my life I felt helpless.

    She then whispers in my ear “You cant move can you? I’m going to be your worst Nightmare.” Then to my surprise she turns around and begins to ride me. Then All these memory begin to surface back to me. Memory of fights I had with my parents and everything. Then she grabs my throat at this moment I scream god help me. Then she gets thrown off me. She then tries again but is unable to step near me. She then walks off with this strut.

    The worst part though is what she said as she left “if you see me again you will die :[." I wasn't scared tho I said yea all-right big but in a cocky tone hehe. I have never feared death because I know it is a natural thing that's why when she said it I didn't even flinch.

    Then as soon as the door shuts i am able to move my body again. I awake in my bed AGAIN. I rush out of my room to see my brother in his room. (odd because he just left for the military.) I ask him what is he doing here. im Fuzzy on what he said. But I then close my eyes and tell myself wake up! I finally wake up. I grab the sleeping pills box and throw them in the trash. :]

    Morel of the story: Don’t take sleeping pills.

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